January 2010
On Holden Caulfield, and Things We Can't Get Back
I, like everyone else, read The Catcher in the Rye and loved it once. I thought I understood Holden, even when I didn’t like him. I clung to his arrogance when cultivating my own disdain for all things insincere. For the first time, I realized that writing didn’t have to be laborious. My words didn’t have to carry the impenetrable authority of a godlike narrator. Holden...
“And so in search of my Holden, I dated one too many guitarists and boys who...”
– diana vilibert: On Girls and Boys (Who) Like Holden
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It Is a Small Thing To Rage In Your Own Bowl
“Not that it was beautiful, but that, in the end, there was a certain sense of order there; something worth learning, in that narrow diary of my mind…” - Anne Sexton
Once, when I was 14 or so, I tried to convince myself I had schizophrenia. I was sure that if I listened very hard, I could hear the voices in my head, separate and distinct from myself. I was sick of being chained...
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Things I Do Not Like And Will Not Have In My House
Plants.
Not flowers.
But house plants. Those leafy, wilty, snaky, green miscellany that clutter up your windowsills and countertops. I abhor them. Why would you putter around the kitchen, watering these dust-collectors? They’re always growing too large, browning at the edges, their soil cracked and hard. Even the healthy ones are an eyesore. It’s not that I object to nature, or the...
Rogue Wave - Sightlines
And you’ll never...
“I wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself, like...”
– Sylvia Plath
Anonymous asked: What are some of your favorite songs? You have great taste in music!
The Virgins - Rich Girls
This has been in my head...
Thrill a Minute
I don’t really have anything interesting to talk about right now. Work is slow. I spend my days standing in heels for six to eight hours, trying not to lean on the desk, hunting for apartments on Craigslist, and considering blowing my brains out. Then I go home and do the same thing while lying down.
Today I went to Pier One. Everything was ugly.
Well. That’s about it for me.
Nouvelle Vague - Don’t Go
A song for people...
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Best To Take the Moment Present As a Present For...
I have this annoying tendency to look back on my past and wish I had lived in the moment more. I think about college and beat myself up for daydreaming during my classes instead of trying to absorb as much information as possible. I mean, my god, I spent entire semesters on poets I can barely remember now. I couldn’t operate a Bolex if my life depended on it. I’m not even positive I...
Things I Don't Like As Much As Other People
- peanut butter
- Radiohead
- guys who work out
- ice cream
- Avatar
- coffee
Things I Like Much More Than Other People
- lemonade
- wearing dresses in the winter
- The Village
- alphabetizing things
- John Stamos
Moving, Or How I Became A Materialistic Bitch
So lately the ONLY things I want to do are eat mexican food and shop for furniture online. Really. If you handed me a laptop that could only surf cheap furniture websites, and a quesadilla slathered in guacamole, I could content myself for at least three hours, or until you brought me another quesadilla.
I am maddeningly obsessed with finding The Perfect Furniture, even though I know that people...
“Brunettes are really in right now. At least that’s what it seems like. I...”
– Almie Rose of Apocalypstick
Amanda Palmer - Oasis
I am in love with this...
“At 5 am, I wake up and stare up at a bright ceiling in a dark room. My father...”
– been thinking…: ebbnflow
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Things I'll Remember When I Leave This Place
I can’t stop thinking about that time that we were talking about death and I said that if anyone close to me died, I’d fall apart. I’d have to quit my job. And you said that there was no one whose death would have a life-changing effect on you. And I posed the question I shouldn’t have posed, the question you shouldn’t ask if you don’t want to hear the answer -...
Kate Nash - The Nicest Thing
I wish that you...
By The Way,
if you were worried about my car, don’t be! I totally gave it some duct tape bandaids and shoved the tail light (WHICH STILL WORKS!) back in place and I can get things out of the trunk by pulling down the backseat and I think the gaping holes make it look kind of badass SO NO BIG DEAL YOU GUYS. I’m still driving. Until I move. Then it’s up for sale! Place your bids now.
She is a...
She Probably Says Things Like "Healthy Snacks"
Some days I just want to be the kind of chick who does yoga and looks really cute in a ponytail.
She’s so together, that girl.
“I think being shy basically means being self-absorbed to the point that it makes...”
– David Foster Wallace (via nerdshares)
How painfully true.
The Jam - That’s Entertainment
Sometimes I...
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Out There Things Can Happen, And Frequently Do, To...
So. I have news. Or the beginnings of news. I’ve taken a baby step.
I am moving. On my own.
I put in a tentative one month’s notice at work and will be going down to part time soon while I prepare. In mid-February I am going to Brooklyn to find an apartment.
Two summers ago, I lived in New York for six weeks while I interned at a production company and lived in the NYU dorms. While...
UGHH
I hate that I can’t have a bad day without getting that annoying Daniel Powter song stuck in my head. I’m on my way home from work, crying a little in the car, looking at my stupid turquoise nail polish that the manager told me I had to remove, and hearing those maddening lyrics in my head.
“You had a bad day…”
OK DANIEL. I GOT IT. THANKS.
Metric - The Police and the Private
I’ve...
Baby's First Accident
I am back home after a weekend in Kingston that included all of the fun things about college (seeing my friends, drunken madlibs, going out dancing, eating french fries while drunk, having excuses to wear awesome outfits, gourmet pizza, vietnamese food, fancy cocktails, urban outfitters, cookie dough truffles, and sexual oversharing) and none of the bad ones (like, y’know, school or...
This Is a Postcard
Hello! I am writing to you from our dear neighbor to the north, Canada. I took a somewhat impromptu trip to Kingston, Ontario today, and promptly got drunk.
What up, Canadian tumblrs?
gasp-shock asked: Where did you find the Sondre Lerche version of "The More I See You"? Amazon and iTunes leave me cold, and I must have it! Reveal your source! I desire to be spun recklessly!
Also - you are an exquisite writer. I sincerely, sincerely hope you are able to turn your words into cold, hard cash (if that's what you desire). Do you have a first name? I came up empty in...
Also - you are an exquisite writer. I sincerely, sincerely hope you are able to turn your words into cold, hard cash (if that's what you desire). Do you have a first name? I came up empty in...
jenniferruiz asked: I think you're a wonderful writer and i can only assume a wonderful person and one of my favorite blogs by far. If you ever come to Los Angeles, you have a friend there : )
We can try on fancy dresses and listen to Florence and the machine.
We can try on fancy dresses and listen to Florence and the machine.
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How Dreary to Be Somebody!
Lately, I have been filled with the uncomfortable suspicion that I am Boring (capital B). I am becoming a person who stops conversation dead in its tracks, because when she tries to think of something witty to say, she draws a giant Blank and ends up giggling through an anecdote only she finds funny.
I am left with a lot of silences. Not those comfortable, companionable silences, but gaping,...
M83 - Kim & Jessie
This sounds like 80s movie...
cardigangirl asked: I love the clothes and jewelry you post and I've bought more dresses and been more daring because of you. If you could only wear one outfit for the rest of your life (or until your next major hairstyle change, like in a cartoon), what would it be?